I was going through my e-mails and
came across one from my dad with the subject line, “as promised”. So instead of sending it to where no one
would see it, thought I would share it on my blog:
Hey dad,
I know you're not going to get this.
Just wanted to let you know I miss you more than I ever thought I would. I
never realized how important you were to my life. I don't even know what I
would say to you if you were still here. I am glad I got to ask you a lot of
questions and you were never short of your opinions about anything.
I miss you reaching out your hand to
tickle me like I was still 1. Sometimes now when I reach out to tickle Austin
or Jackson I think about you. I wonder if you'd think about me when I was
little doing the same. I hope my sons love me as much as I loved you.
You were a great man. "warts
and all" as my mother and law says, but more than anything I knew you
loved me and were proud of me.
Thanks for being there when you were
here. Wish you were here now.
Got a voicemail from Jeff today, he
got a promotion at work. He wanted to talk to you about it... obviously you
couldn't tell him what you thought. He took the promotion as you would of told
him.
This has been a tough year for me.
Wish I could tell you how it's been working out.
Mom gave me some of your old scout
stuff... I was shocked to learn something I either had forgotten or didn't even
know. You went to the national jamboree! that was pretty cool.
Well, happy fathers day... it feels
very sad to know you're not here for me to tell you that. Mom sent me the
fathers day cards i had given you over the years, it was harder to read than I
thought. I was surprised to see that I had told you had much you had meant to
me through the years. I'm really glad I did that. One of them was the time I
gave you a free ticket to go see "ghost dad" with bill cosby. We got
a flat tire on the way to go see it. we were going to be late and I said we
didn't have to go. You said, "I made a commitment to go see it with you,
let's go see it". It was a terrible movie but an amazing memory of your
dedication. I hope I have half the dedication to my sons as you did to us boys.
thanks for being there, I miss you
more than i ever thought now that you're not here. Thanks for being a great
example of dedication and love by showing it.
Happy Fathers Day,,, I miss you.
Your son,
tim
